temen? nothiiing!

well well well...
akhirnya gw bisa suka sama orang lagi...
lhooo.. kayanya sering banget kan gw suka sama orang.. hehehe..
tapi sekarang gw suka ama orang jerman namanya Melwin, yang skul di UQ juga...
masalahnya... kayanya temen gw juga suka dia.. en tampaknya Melwin juga excited ama temen gw itu.. huh.. yah kayanya harus mentingin temen deh.. temen.. iya laah..

btw, baru aja gebetan lain lewat. ga gebetan murni sih, abis gw ga kenal dia hehe.. dia rumahnya deket rumah gw, en parttimenya di resto deket rumah gw. gw lumayan sering papasan di jalan. eh sekarang ketemu lagi. cakep bow orangnya hehe..

yasuw lah.. bingung.. pas suka ama orang, temen gw juga suka.. yasuw lah..

ciao

a pause for thought

somehow i'm getting to understand more about gay people.

i might be just over- or underimagining, but i try being emphatic, i try to put myself into their position, afterall, they are still human beings.
they have feelings, they have mind, just like you and I straight people do .

the problem is, why people would look at gay people strangely as if they are freaks.
that is due to what people say (prescriptive) norm. and from the word norm, comes out another word: normal. and people sometimes regard gay people as abnormal. but i dont think so.

what is normal? what is accepted by the society? our kind (human beings) are somehow cursed (that is what i would say if i were a religious person who conversely had thought against some of the God's words - as if there really were words from God's mouth) by our own mind, to think, sense, and perceive. to evaluate people, to have our own attitude toward most things in this world.

the simple question is, why should we treat them differently? as if they are not as humane as we straight people?

and how can I come up with this thought?

well, you see, there are several times I caught myself admire gay men and twice to have fallen for them. But that's not the core case. I try to be emphatic if I were one of homosexual people. And when you fall for someone who can't return your feelings, that hurts. And that may make you feel unworthy, make you think why the world is unfair, when you need love most. I resemble myself as a straight girl crushing on a gay man to homosexual people who fall for straight people.

How ironic is that?

aug 4, 2006 9:29